Pregnancy Diaries

 I've restarted my blog so many times this year, I didn't quite know what I wanted to write. 

Firstly it was about finding myself, navigating life & being 30 and going through my 30's - in the most honest and raw way I could. 

I didn't know what life really was and I know this is something that isn't unique to me. 

Then .. In June, I found out I was pregnant and life changed, everything changed in 24 hours. 

I was far from prepared.

 

I didn't have the magical moment when I took the test where it was smiles and rainbows, I thought Fx#k!!!

I had a lot of fears but at the same time, I knew this is something I had prayed for, worked for and I've always wanted my own children and my own family. Growth and healing from past trauma's left me feeling secure in knowing I was having a baby now. 

I'm currently 19 weeks and 4 days pregnant, it feels like it's been FOREVERRRRR and it's come with so much change in such a short space of time. I need a space to process and what better way than getting my blog up and running again. I'm a MUVVVAAAA. 

So, what will pregnancy diaries be? It's what I didn't know, it's what I wish I knew and what I have come to know. Pregnancy has felt like a secret society so here is my experience.